The sum of all fears. A despicable ending.

It's a cold March morning. The sun is way deep in the clouds and it won't be out for a few days. There is hope however, a slim hope...
Wind blows with madness and the sky is all gray. I despise this weather even though it resembles my etat d'esprit.
My worst fears proofed to be true. I was getting sick of all that numbness I was driving in. So my Semper Vigilantes status ultimately showed me I can trust no one. I know spying it's a dirty thing to do. But when you've got reasons... I'd say go for it.
Anyway... Little did I knew about my baby. And now knowing it, it made my soul break in tiny little pieces blown away by the Arctic currents. My fears were all but true and I dare to say without the risk of mistake - she is definitely NOT the girl for me! She is definitely NOT the right human being to keep nearby.
I'm so disappointed...

"As I live and breathe
You have killed me, You have killed me
Yes I walk around somehow
But you have killed me, You have killed me..."
- Morrissey